oh tidak mengapa

aku kenapa.
cemburu. dengki. sakit hati?
aku rasa bukan.
pasti bukan.

masih mencari.
ingat dia lah orangnya.
tapi bukan.
Ya. aku tertarik padanya.
semua padanya.

sedar diri ini.
insan biasa yang tak sempurna mana.
aku gembira kalau kamu-kamu bahagia.
aku tak kisah.

saya tidak apa-apa.
jangan risau. tak nak lukakan hati sesiapa.
buang perasaan ini jauh-jauh.
bunga bukan sekuntum.
semoga kamu-kamu bahagia.

tak tahu entry itu tuju pada siapa.
tapi terasa pada empunya diri.
baiklah saya sudah faham.
saya tidak suka berebut.
kesudahannya boleh dijangka.
lagi pula.TIADA apa pun yang BERMULA.

sekian dari saya.
luahan hati kecil ini.
mungkin ini lebih baik dari kata-kata.

terima kasih.

daa..daa...daa...

penah dengar michael buble? i guess for those who love slow music mesti kenal singer ni. Aku x la fanatic sangat dulu bab2 lagu2 slow ni..cuma sekarang ni macam kena je ngan jiwa aku...

jom kita menyanyi lagu ni..lagu ni dah jadi background blog buruk ni..
layan... :)

Lost

I can't believe it's over
I watched the whole thing fall
And I never saw the writing that was on the wall
If I'd only knew
The days were slipping past
That the good things never last
That you were crying

Summer turned to winter
And the snow had turned to rain
And the rain turned into tears upon your face
I hardly recognize the girl you are today
And god I hope it's not too late
It's not too late

'Cause you are not alone
I'm always there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When your worlds crashing down
And you can't bear the thought
I said, babe, you're not lost

Life can show no mercy
It can tear your soul apart
It can make you feel like you've gone crazy
But you're not
Things have seemed to change
There's one thing that's still the same
In my heart you have remained
And we can fly fly fly away

'Cause you are not alone
And I am there with you
And we'll get lost together
Till the light comes pouring through
'Cause when you feel like you're done
And the darkness has won
Babe, you're not lost
When the worlds crashing down
And you cannot bear the cross

I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost
I said, baby, you're not lost

~gado~

hati sakit.gado ngan seseorang tadi.
reason xmo citer kat sini. it's not a big thing.
just the two of us who take it seriously.
btw..aku pun keras kepala.nasib baik aku lebih bnyk diam je.
kalo aku macam dia yang mulut tak henti nak attack orang..konfem..
x abis la gado tu.

aku diam bukan aku takut.bukan aku mengaku dia benar.
bukan aku setuju ape yang dia buat betul.
balik jer rumah..aku capai kunci motor..
aku terus kuar pg makan.pastu ingat x nak terus balik umah..nak pg cool down sikit.
tapi x tau nak pg mana kat shah alam ni.kalo kat umah aku yg kat kampung tu, kalo dah gini aku pg laot blakang umah tu...tgk alam mmg dapat tenang kan aku.

last2. aku pg ke mana...
pg ke Taman cahaya Seri Alam @ Bukit Cherakah. tak jauh mana..200m dari umah sewa aku. aku pg sorang. yes..sorang..x penah2 aku wat camni.

tiket masuk. RM3. ada option nak jalan kat sini, naik shuttle bus, naik beskal atau berjalan kaki.aku pilih jalan kaki.bajet gagah la nak masuk dalam hutan tu.

Snap la beberapa gmbr guna my phone camera.huh. bad quality la.bila aku nak ade DSLR ni.

tiba2 teringat nak pg tmpt yg kecik2 dulu aku penah smpi..tapi x tau ape nama port tu. redah punya redah..tah mana2 aku pg..taman haiwan. kampung idaman. paddy field. danau perikanan. taman arnab. last2 x jumpa gak.. dah berpeluh tahap gaban..penat giler..tapi best la gak jadi gila tiba2 ni.

tengok orang naek beskal...ala ruginya aku kalo x boleh aku pg jauh lagi.
then aku balik. tapi mmg aku berjaya cool down. dah x marah dah. dah x emo dah. back to normal.


mereka2 ni mmg senyap.x la sakit hati.


rumah pak awang. tapi xleh masuk.

p/s: wan. better u naik beskal instead of jalan kaki. padan muka. lenguh kaki tahap gaban ko masuk utan tadi....giler la.

tingtong

neno..neno..neno..

hari yang penat.
penat sebab balik tadi naik moto cuaca panas..
sambil bawak motor sambil berpikir..
sempat ke siapkan pipe routing?
pergh...sukar sekali bila wat keje yg mmg x der experience ni..

owh..penat..duit..oh dah makin kurang..
nape macam laju jer duit kuar sekarang ni..

malam.
pas makan tadi singgah petronas.isi minyak.
capai paper Sinar. Paper yang x best. Tapi murah. :)
Bayar RM50 untuk minyak RM5. Kira baki.
eh....?

Wan Tingtong: Kak, x cukup singgit..saya isi RM5 jer (dengan muka serius).
Kak Kaunter: ?? surat khabar tu singgit. :)(sambil tunjuk paper kat celah ketiak aku)
Wan Tingtong: owh...(malu) oh singgit yer. ok. diam.

cepat2 berlalu dan isi minyak tanpa toleh lagi ke arah kaunter. malu.wakaka.

HaVen't Met YoU yEt

I don't know why I'm writing this post.
I'm not sure what's happening to me right now.

Is it because I'm feeling empty.
Feel empty because all my closed friends are living too far.
Feel empty as I'm just a trainee and I'm still jobless.
or the BIGGEST one because I'm couldn't find my soul mate.
ohh..

Suddenly I'll jealous with people around me.
Mostly they have their own partner or lover.
but what about me.
Am i choosy?.
i guess that i am not.

owh..my soul mate.
where can i find you my dear.

David Choi Superb!

Sajer nak upload video ni.. Aku suka dgr lagu2 yg orang ni nyanyi..
well..i'm just his fan...so.. enjoy this song.

What happened
after last summer
when we broke up
in September

I havent seen you
Feels like a long time
Sometimes it still hurts
But I always get by

I still got a piece of you under my skin
Its always there no matter where Ive been

So if I ever see you on the street
Ill pretend that I didnt see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then Ill have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

I wish you luck
And I wish it true
Thats the best
I can do for you

Cuz youll probably find love
In someone new
I have to let go
Yeah its hard to do

So if I run into you with your arm by his side
Just know itll cut me like a knife

So if I ever see you on the street
Ill pretend that I didnt see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then Ill have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

Apa nak dikata..

Salam semua...

Seperti yang korang semua maklum atau korang memang tak pernah dimaklumkan...aku adalah salah seorang trainee for piping design in Technip. I'm a trainee and off course i'm not a permanent staff there. Pada permulaan masa aku ikuti program ni, aku diberitahu mmg ader la peluang untuk berstatus permanent sekiranya berkelakuan baik dan extraordinary performance.

Tapi 2 hari yg lepas..ade akak dari HR bagi talk pada trainees. dia kata...dia kata...
sedih aku nak menulisnyer..dia kata..the economy will become worse for next year and become more worst in 2011! WHAT! 2 years still not okay??

Can you imagine??? what should i do. I'm a trainee. I want a permanent job. I don't want to be jobless after this training. Ya mmg la training ni bg aku banyak skill yg aku mmg konfem x boleh dapat kat universiti. Tapi kalo macam ni...ohh.. I'm down!...baby are you down? down..down..down..

Sebelum ni, kat paper ade tulis tahun depan (2010). Ekonomi akan pulih. hmm..mana yg aku perlu percaya?

Akhir skali..sila la dgr lagu ni.